| ok, i didn't have much time before..so here it goes, my first real xanga after being away for like 2 years.. I am in love with the All-American Rejects and John Mayer.. totally different I know but i can't help it, I love them both. I am 100% in love with the song "It Ends Tonight" Besides my new musical intrests my life is constantly busy. I add unnessasary stress to my life all the time. Im still unsure about the collegiate Entrepunures thing, I would have to go to boston on the 24th and I don't know if I want all that responsibility this summer. Part of me wants it, but a big part of me wants the summer off, well not off but for real houlton farms is like my favorite pass time. Im so excited for summer, I can't wait to float in the pool with Jo and Nicole, and go to the lake, and sit in the grass with Patrick, go for walks, go to the park, ride around with my foot out the window, be tan, be warm, and just simply enjoy life with my friends and family. God I need a vacation. School is really stressful, it takes alot of effort, and work, and time, lots and lots of time. I never seem to have enough time, for anything. Im always rushing around. The only time I make sure to take out of the day is in the evening when I walk downstairs to talk to nicole, well almost everyday, and sometimes she is on the phone. Thats the only time that i regularly take for myself. And usually its because im stressed and nicole has a calming quality about her. The one thing I am glad I did was join Chi O, yep, thats right its one of those unnessasary stress cause-ers that I added to my list of things to do, but I actually enjoy that one. And its worth it. However, study hours for us in the library are not productive because we talk, alot! But im excited to start organizing the little retreat thing that we are going on, I should start that this week... So I love rollie but he is a pain in the neck. He is spoiled beyond belief. He is rediculas, somehow I hope he grows out of the "i get anything i want and there is nothing you can do about it" stage. However, i don't think he will. I miss him so much while i am at school. I am so happy to be home today. It feels so good, I haven't been home in a while, and its worth the four hour ride to have my laundry done for free. So I have learned a few lessons already in 2007 here are a couple of them: >secrets are way overrated
>I swear way too much and am stopping
>I don't enjoy drinking... as much as i use to.
>I have anxiety issues, that need to be addressed.
>lying isn't good for the self image, or self esteem..
>that I'm that girl that i use to be intimadated by, (nicole is too) Mirrors in the mall showed us this.... Ok thats all i have, nothing too deep, but nothing to shallow. "Donot walk in front of me,
I may not follow.
Do not walk behind me,
I may not lead.
Instead, walk beside me
and be my friend."
-Unknown
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